Day 30 Monday, jan 30th decisions and choices

Out of an impossible, a possible has been achieved. I am in such awe I have no words. Buford team is the hardest working team I have ever known. We were at our goal with a surplus of $20.69. Not by much, but the fact that it was achieved was the reward.


A "matched" offer was made late in the day which was instantly amazingly inticing, but the terms had all of sudden changed, something has immediatedly changed the playing field. They needed me even more. Even as self-gratifying as that was, that fact made it easier to consider all the options with more caution.


I had expressed the sentiment that I would love to join but adamently cautioned that my loyalty still laid to my closest associate and they hadn't been informed. I appreciated the offer and requested patience as I prayed about the matter and it was granted without hesitation.  I called back rather with an unsettling question of the one detail that stood out like a sore thumb now. 

Hubby convinced me not to make a call to my closest associate (in rank and order) until tomorrow which was real hard to do.

Peace still accompanies me.

Day 29 Sundays are awesome and Amazon is pretty cool

Slept in until 11ish. Had a great talk with hubby about work decisions and choices. No rushing is required. I continue to feel excitement in my role and of the new challenges.

The hubby has been sick all weekend . Got stopped at the entrance of the subdivision by a young, good looking GCPD officer and fortunately didn't get a ticket for not having a seatbelt. I had the brake tail light out. Hubby changed IMMEDIATEDLY. Just so had a bulb 1357 in the GMC glove compartment.

The sun finally peaked out today. So thankful. Took the hubby to Chilis. Got my decision made about project life album and details. I also ordered my first batch online order of pictures, they were ready in 20 minutes.

Well let's get to bed so we can get Monday done...

my project life weekly folders.

The sun peeking through...

I actually read the instruction on how to use my THE CINCH machine.

Day 28 good times with family

Great times with my brothers and sisters in laws and my mom. My firstborn convincing himself and others about his new "adult life" step of getting an apartment. He' s giving up on his dream in theatre and going back to school. The latter I'm totally supportive and the previous I have my guidelines which don't coincide with the obviously more talented and all knowing 20 year old who surpasses my understanding of the field. The only sore area of our relationship.

I thoroughly believe that many of us who have the core values, entrepreneurial spirit, common sense have the elements and been gifted with the right timing which has allotted us great success by our skills and hard work. That is not mainly available to the generation that secedes us. As much as the opportunities are available today the schooling must be more evident. The titles and degrees so much more needed now than then...

Today, there alot more people looking and availible for any position and the market and climate of today is so much more pressured by settling for a job assignment than the demand.

Day 27 TGIF

I'm physically tired... still reviewing my options and aware that I received a call, that the call was made to me, not the opposite. I was not the one looking or calling. I am not desperate or failing. The calm that accompanies me is amazing. I think i understand the words of Simon Sinek, "Worrying is carrying the concern of what you don't want to happen." So true.

My closest associates remain in place. My mentor still with grace and grand skill lead the scattered multitude even at the exit stage.

@Naomi - totally gansta' style

Day 26 these greys have granted me some common sense

So I have 2 master degrees in my presence and the most important detail missing managed to be noticed by the only unstudied one present. Seriously?!

The second visit of the day was so much more gratifying.
The words made me gasp in teary eye happiness. Had he just said i want everyone to leave happy, not just some of them, but EVERYONE. Had I just walked into my dream? Is this what I have been reading about all this time? A total stranger and strangers seemed liked new best friends and I was in Utopia for the entire tour. The hour an a half conversation between old acquaintances was profound and fulfilling. An offer placed and a invitation welcomed.  I would hear the verdict next week.

Day 24 A most welcomed call from a most unexpected source

Excited to hear an voice from the past. Is this a tap on my shoulder? This is Tuesday an invitation to visit on Thursday.

Day 23 I will admit it I was kinda grouchy kinda being sarcastic

The weather pretty much dictated my mood today with rain and thunderstorms forecasted and definitely stormed threw Buford without let up.

I can pretty much take most of anything just NOT lies or people who can't just be who they are upfront. I kept thinking of the extreme pressure there is to make goal and the repercussions of not attaining it. At staff meeting when asked what we receive in achieving our goal. I straightforward responded without skipping a beat, "You maintain job security and less questioning by VP why production is low and manpower has not decreased". I toiled with that burden today.

Having less patience for the lazy or unmotivated.

Unexpected but well invited message, we will have to see pray on that one. Hmmm....

Day 22 they are paid and we paid

In 10 minutes we had an additional sale and talked to some nice people. Hanging on the "Whatcha talking about Willis" issue.

Day 21 all was NOT a loss today

I woke up exhausted but excited. Unfortunately, sat through a 4.25 hr silent tennis match for DREC....afterwards adrenaline pump with the auction. Tag lines of the night: "I want my shizzzz back". "that's us too!", "I'll stand in line now", "20 going for 25, 30, do i hear 35, 40....59..."and a couple more "I want my shizzz back". I noticed Gaby and I are super good for this stuff, we can handle the pressure with excitement of the conquest!

Day 20 emergens- C

Thank you honey. Payday, pay bills, and an extra

Day 19 nice day even being sick

So excited I left with no worries

Day 18 sick and miserable

I'm sick, but meigouzi managed to get on the masters' good side to receive some special treats...

Day 18 sick and miserable

Day 17 get ur done...

learning not to micromanage, discovering what type of manager I truly am, surprised at how quick I was today to voice my true feelings with principle and truth, and learning to ask is not a sign of weakness rather of intelligence. my job as the "boss lady"- to give out the balloons. Had a little precocious, 7ish girl as my front desk - who is the boss around here? He pointed to me and she said "really? she is nice!". Best compliment ever!!! Like my little escape corner. My charts are on track and my team is adjusting. Checking out pinterest thanks to my sister. Kids nightly text time is priceless. My Gaby is bullheaded, my Chris is my Oreo handshake. I love him and hubster is hanging in there with some wicked virus. I, I just need to sleep in ...someday. Actually looking forward to Thursday.

Day 1⃣6⃣ judge your decisions by one question

"What good can come from this?". (Simon sinek says this in a similar form) copied from him. I think it was real fitting for me and I will definitely use in my future choices. I have peace with my prevailing sista' , my PM sista' Seems like we are all learning and trying to stay afloat. I set up my new little corner and put up the BOARD. Getting excited in my new Thursday role and asking for all the help in all directions to be found. I am preparing my AGENDA and excited to see my place in DFC. Working stress free, smarter, quicker, and will use the correct tools as needed.

Day 1⃣5⃣ oh I forgot it was the weekend

I hope this week goes swiftly without any major drama. It's all a work in progress.

I came across a great saying by Jim Rohn on communication: "Learn to express, not impress". I may have to post that real close to my email send button.

Day 1⃣4⃣ scrappin ...story telling...something about a sock

Lazy morning woke op @ 12:30 ish. Started on projectlife, with my OCD, I know I will revamp it to another album and printed journaling rather than all my handwriting. I wish I wrote like Heidi Swapp. The dinner with the cousins was a success, looking forward to many more.

I have decided to not let anyone attempt to dampen my light. I will continue to be me. To learn to be strong and speak up.

Day 1⃣3⃣ connection from afar... I wanna be someone to believe

Sha la la la la la la la
Oh, uh huh

I was down at the New Amsterdam
Starin' at this yellow-haired girl
Mr. Jones strikes up a conversation
With a black-haired flamenco dancer
You know she dances while his father plays guitar
She's suddenly beautiful
And we all want something beautiful
Man, I wish I was beautiful

So come dance this silence down through the morning
Sha la la la la la la la
Yeah, oh, uh huh, yeah

Cut up, Maria! Show me some of them Spanish dancers n'
Pass me a bottle, Mr. Jones
Believe in me
Help me believe in anything
I wanna be someone who believes

Mr. Jones and me tell each other fairy tales
And we stare at the beautiful women
"She's looking at you. Ah, no, no, she's looking at me."
Smiling in the bright lights
Coming through in stereo
When everybody loves you, you can never be lonely

Well, I'm gon' paint my picture
Paint myself in blue, red, black and gray
All of the beautiful colors are very very meaningful
Gray is my favorite color
I felt so symbolic yesterday
If I knew Picasso
I would buy myself a gray guitar and play

Mr. Jones and me look into the future

Yeah, we stare at the beautiful women
"She's looking at you.
I don't think so. She's looking at me."
Standin' in the spotlight
I bought myself a gray guitar
When everybody loves me, I will never be lonely
I will never be lonely
Said I'm never gonna be lonely

I want to be a lion
Eh, everybody wanna pass as cats
We all want to be big, big stars
Yeah but we got different reasons for that
Believe in me 'cause I don't believe in anything
And I wanna be someone to believe
To believe, to believe, yeah

Mr. Jones and me stumbling through the barrio
Yeah, we stare at the beautiful women
"She's perfect for you.
Man, there's got to be somebody for me!"
I wanna be Bob Dylan
Mr. Jones wishes he was someone just a little more funky
When everybody loves you, ah son
That's just about as funky as you can be

Mr. Jones and me starin' at the video
When I look at the television
I wanna see me staring right back at me
We all want to be big stars, but we don't know why
And we don't know how
But when everybody loves me
I'm gonna be just about as happy as I can be
Mr. Jones and me, we're gonna be big stars

The only way to describe today is with the above. No cloud 9, but definitely a solemn feeling. Not even scared of the unknown, rather i am a overprotective, rightfully proud, and infinitely more bold, madly naive visionary. Not sure what I'm fighting for...oh yeah, it's to believe. Pass me the bottle, Mr. Jones. Believe in me...smh

and the following words by JFK in my defense.

"There are costs and risks to a program of action, buy they are far less than the long-range risks and costs of comfortable inaction."

Perfect quote.

Day 1⃣2⃣ I cut the umbilical cord with my home team

So it's really going to take place?! Overall, the day was stress free as i allowed the smart people guide my path and words rather than impulse and emotions-I can't say the same for what occurred shortly after that. I very much allowed my WHY to speak and i am remarkably or NAIVELY calm. I will soon know.

Day 1⃣1⃣ tears of sadness and sadness

This day was marked by agitation, concern, friendship forging stronger bonds, and some heartfelt tears. I couldn't contain the gasping for air, as I tried to remind myself to breathe. He even replied in his deadpan custom. "I don't usually have to say this to you, but I can't actually hear you, are you still there?". All I wanted to say was and "who is going to help us now?". Instead the moment called for just thank you and you will be missed. Those were the only words that i could muster up through the sobs. It was reliving the goodbye call, the greetings at the party, and September 1st again.
I should of known better than to have called right after receiving a text and picture from a most unlikely source which commenced the trails of tears. Fortunately, at that moment not one solitary person in the office needed of me, it was just my pathetic self and my emotions, so thankful.

I am at peace once again due to knowing that peace exists with my stronghold, my Rock. I honestly believe that i have the most incredible mentors, who tutor and guide me daily and if it wasn't for their patience I would not be. Thank you.

May tomorrow continue to kindly and generously provide me with wisdom and courage.

Day 1⃣0⃣ I woke up "spitting mad"

And I just woke up ticked off, not sure if it's because of self serving reasons (I wanted them to see I was prepared- pretty pathetic) or if it's because I expected more details-insight on the mystery that is our new boss or was it that I don't have a backbone or voice anymore. Or is it because I didn't appreciate the underhanded comment or so it seemed, now that I interpret all conversation with suspicion and paranoia. I'm exhausted. I'm hurt and... I will survive. Tonight Moscato will have calm my woes!

No emotions no words

I just couldn't believe that I had wasted my energy, my time, and my half tank of gas and all I got was another "punch to the gut". If it was mine then at least I could accept it. But I think this has become a little more than I have the courage to handle or stand up for. I sent the email to DRAFT again. I jjust can't believe, it was nothing what I expected. There is absolutely NO EMOTION IN THE CORPORATE WORLD.

Day 9⃣ All I have to say about that...

...and that's I have to say about that

Reminder of #FinishYear goals and objectives

Amongst these categories-a whole list of subcategories emerge. Those details are in my personal journal. At those i have seemed more successful than these long term yearly 2012 goals. I am feeling a little discouraged that judging this as it stands it would appear as i have not accomplished anything. I did download a THESAURUS app, does that count?

Well, I may need to revamp my list. Let's get this Monday going... Oh yeah first I must sleep for at least 300 minutes🕔

Day8⃣ errands grocery shopping lists and accomplishing goals and watching some football

This has been a great football weekend. Even though, I do not know stats, jersey number and team history as my brothers do, I grew up cheering on my brother's favorite teams and enjoying a good game. This weekend, i cheered on my sister's Texans, as she stood amongst the crowds at Reliant Stadium, I shared in her excitement of having coveted tickets to the playoff games and hear all about pre-game, post game, and even some mid-game details. Saint's game was amazing- congrats to the hubby's hometown. The Falcons-mine- not so much! And what about that guy named Tebow, wow! That's what makes a great weekend of football.

Reviewed the budget, made groceries, got my physical one, and did a lot of reading. I actually realized that I can read two books at once. Interesting. Everyday learning how to do the Twitter thing- I think?!

I am convinced that the more you seek the more you attain. In all levels and aspects of your life. I am continually challenging myself to seek more.

I am reading Glenn Beck's latest book THE 7 WONDERS THAT WILL CHANGE YOUR LIFE and even though i picked it up more for a quick read on biographical nature than a retrospective look. The only words i read on the back sleeve were "just thirteen when his mother committed suicide" before walking to the checkout line with my bananas and creamer. It has been a poignant approach to greater personal development by using "7 wonders": Courage, Faith, truth, compassion, friendship, family, and common sense to draw personal self analysis. At one point its about coincides and reasons things are brought into our lives, in our paths. It made me think about something that has been put in my path or interestingly enough I requested, didn't get it the first time and now it's come back into my path and it might be needed more by the source than the requester. I am leaving that in general terms as to be able to fully ascertain the situation or... Let's just call it #thewill. More on it in later posts.

The second that has hit me personally from this book is #3 Truth... I think I am going to read this chapter again because it is deep.

As far as smaller objectives listed in my #FinishYear challenge- we are moving along victoriously and proudly having involved and received ample cooperation from the kiddos. They are wonderful and I keep adding to my FinishYear lists in my Entreleadership "moleskin journal" book. Today we added #ProjectLife project to our fun things to do.

Two things I'm working on is TIME MANAGEMENT and DECISION MAKING. I am going to start making my morning TO-DO LISTS and let the extra 20% come on. 20% = those charts I lug around from office to home, home to office. Oh! how I do look forward to NOT lugging you around.

Gotta go its prayer time with the kiddos